Wednesday, January 20, 2016

New Year New start

 ( sorry about the high lighting- I have been trying to get rid of it.)

First I want to thank all of  you who continue to read my blogs, and continue reading even through the hard times and gaps of the entries.  And I hope you continue reading and hopefully learn from what I share or enjoy reading what I share. 

Now second on to today's post:

Don't we all love the new year and a fresh start? After all it is the perfect time to start over or find a new path to travel down especially if things have not gone well during a previous year. I am no exception. A New Year means new things and new adventures. It also means new challenges and obstacles we need to face and deal with. 
 This year is no exception.  I am going to be writing several things I have not only gone through but also the lessons I have learned. I have thought about writing a book regarding the past years events but after three or four drafts its not working. So I will be writing the events and lessons attached here instead,  not because they are that boring but because they are connected to my soul and I hope they will connect with your soul as well.
I am also working through a book called "The Language of Letting go" by Melody Beattie (and would like to get her other two books in the future). Because having been a wife I was a Mrs and all that went with being a wife. So I became a little - well a lot -- codependent. Now I am working to live on my own and learn who I am and what or who I can become as a single woman. 

So I hope what I have learned and am learning will help you as well.  

Stay tuned for more.

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Nano time

For those who dont know what nano is, its National Novel Writing Month, and I have undertaken that challenge. It is a fiction story based on nonfiction experiences. In the past I was always able to find answers to things happening in my life, and I'm hoping this  will help me find the next direction in my journey.

I always discover new things when I write a story, so we will see what new things I learn after I finish this story. Again sorry I have been absent.

Monday, October 19, 2015


1 Peter 5:7 “ Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”

Now part two, of this journey.  Today we talk about anxiety. Each day while I was waiting for a place of my own, I heard nothing. No phone calls no letters nothing.  Soon days went to weeks and weeks into months. Finally after a misunderstanding regarding my name I got a place- a month before the month I was to have surgery and would be off my feet.

But those months anxiety filled me so bad nothing else seemed to matter. Each day I worried things wouldn’t happen in time and I would either have to cancel the doctor visit and surgery or still be at the ex’s as I recover. Neither one of us wanted that.  But Jesus tells us in 1 Peter 5:7 “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”

Sometimes those words are easier than actually doing them, especially when for the most part you will be alone. Once I was living on my own that’s where I would be, alone for the most part. So maybe I was not ready for that. There were so many things happening in my life at that time. I didn’t know what to do or where to turn. All the more reason to turn to God and ask for his protection and guidance. All the more reason to rely on what He says I should do – which is in His Word. And I’m working on that slowly.  But it will take time and moving forward. Step by step day by day.

Let’s pray: Father we may not understand what is happening in our lives and where we are to go. In those moments forgive us for not turning to you when we should. Thank you for being there for us and being there for us and gently guiding us to where we need to go.  Thank you for all you do,

in Jesus name Amen.

Friday, October 16, 2015

Patience Pt 1

                                                      Psalms 46:10 (NIV)
                                             “Be still and know that I am God”

Because my life and the events of it which changed the direction of it started back in January, that’s when I can say the fork in the road appeared. And to this day it is still very hard to talk about. But talking about it does seem to help. That’s because I am not focusing on it and thinking about it constantly. But that does not mean I don’t have guilt seeping in at odd moments.

More on guilt later, now we are going to focus on Patience and how hard it is to be patient. Back in January my husband and I divorced and I moved into my own place. Because I have never had the chance to live alone needless to say I was… well a bunch of emotions I did not know how to process. I am glad my now ex and I parted on friendly grounds but that didn’t help what would happen farther down the road.

Also in January I had made the decision to have foot surgery to have a bunion removed. It had begun to hurt more than I could handle, however had I known the events that would soon unfold I wonder if I would have had the surgery. After talking with the assistant for the doctor who would be doing the surgery, my surgery was scheduled for June of 2015.

But that surgery set the stage for the changes – and growth – that I am now going through. That’s not to say there aren’t growing pains because letting to and letting God can be hard to do. But that is what we need to do and wouldn’t it be better to be prepared instead of blindsided?  Because regardless how hard we try to stop change from happening it, it will happen. Our best option, Trust in Jesus who knows us and what we are really capable of, even more than we do.  So how here it is Jan, I am divorced, have to find my own place, get moved in and set up house before June.

 In part two I will continue with the unfolding journey as it leads to present day.

Let’s pray: Father thank you for another day and another day closer to who I am to be. Change is hard to do sometimes and hard to accept. But we know change is something that happens and to help with that we need to trust you because according to your words you have our best interests at heart. Thank you for knowing more about us than we do, help us to daily put our trust in you and believe what is happening in our lives is in our best interest even when its hard for us to understand.  In Jesus name Amen.

(Sorry this was late today,  will be working on pt 2 this weekend and have it Monday.)